HEARTLESS WOMAN....

The showers you obtain are your emotions…… In the shower singing my heart away, In this case my showers are cold like my heart, In the shower singing my heart away…. Just singing to the cold clear water as if it was you. Inspecting the bitter and chilling water run down my weary and wounded body……. Just singing, Singing like my existence depended on it…..over the days your tried and overly used body wont stand for anymore cold showers… Soooooo I would assume your showers well become more warm, in hopes that your heart well to,
Even the songs you may sing well become brighter forthermore enjoyable. Although people can also craft your showers to be shorter then you would like them to be. Everyone started out with warm showers and loving there self in it. Don’t get me wrong my showers were once hot as well as enjoyable because of one person, now there cold and long…….I HATE THEM!

Lips shaking… Heart barely beating yet the only thing that’s keeping you alive is the songs you extreme dislike to sing but you most keep yourself alive. Why can’t he keep you warm in that cold water you stand freezing alone in? Even though that shower is cold with one but he can make it warm. That cold water will soon turn warm and extended like you like them, yet you stand in that cold bitter solid shower singing all Leona songs in tell your body and heart is cold and solid with no way of bring it back to know what love is and how it feels to be loved. So now you’re a cold and barely alive heartless woman in this world of unhappiness with only memories. So you hunch over curled up holding yourself to stay alive and loveable yet you’re mad and disappointed in you self so you’re not holding yourself as tight as you should. HEARTLESS WOMAN!!!

true story

WONT LET GO!

When it’s all said in finished we can’t never let each other walk off. It’s just not possible in life. We’ve been though too much to let are self misplace each other there no way no how. It’s crazy how people can modify people and compose them a whole dissimilar person in and out all though some era it’s not constantly in a high-quality way. in this case I’m thankful that he helped me uncover myself....



when it’s all said in done I just won’t let you go and you don’t consent to let me go no matter what. I thought we was going to leave on terrible terms, I was going to be truly miserable .we made it through an additional difficulty problem that we have been going though for months . Nothing can stop us ,spending the last 48 hours with you and getting that last kiss mint the world to me and can’t wait to get that kiss back.


I don’t even know why I’m even doing this after all that ish that happened I just don’t comprehend myself any longer.

p.s

you was my best friend ...... sigh now I forever think about you every were I go and songs I hear and events at the club, food I may eat and how I sleep-in. I know you and you know me :/sigh fuck man I just don’t know anymore I’m loosed , I don’t know what to do

All I know is this I’m not going anywhere and I love you so much you’re my air and I can’t breathe without air. Listen to Justin nozkua makes me miss you so much. To miss someone that damage you so much doesn’t make any since at all. Why miss whom who hurt you and changed your existence in a way that doesn’t fit you.

Not just done with this one. so come back!!!

EMO HUH????NAW!

Ladies check this out never enlighten a guy how you feel or anything regarding you in tell you distinguish if its for real even then be cautious furthermore maintain your grid up at all times. cause the last thing you need in your existence is a guy that don’t care about you and never did even though you would give him the world and extra, it’s a disgrace how love can hurt those who love to love their love ones. Ladies look when you express your love for someone they will discover your weakness and us it against you that well leave you to a broken heart that well take forever to heal.soooo don’t do it just don’t. You don’t want to end up like me at all. Feeling sad for reason you cant explain, lonely at all instance even though you may be hanging with friends you still sense along and down, nor may you might not have anyone to aid you through this madness of love. At the end of the day it seems like the only one that can construct you to feel better is the person that may have got you to this point but be aware that he may not know he did. Maybe he do you just never know? So just truest your mind and not your heart because your love will be in love and won’t be able to think about what’s best for you. Love just goes off of love and noting more. So my conclusion is fuck love because love doesn’t love you when you want to be in love.Sigh:/

To share what your heart is informing you not to trespass is killing your emotions every time you enter, So obey your feelings and your intelligence well lead your heart in the way you need to go and not were you think you wanna be. Cause love well always take you to places where you never wanted to go in the first places. A places where you feel discarded, not appreciated, used, not cherished, played with and never loved or the sense of loneness and you always cry every day.Nevertheless however your heart feels that how you well feel in tell your heart heals, and who knows when that is. So just keep you in you and don’t share it with anyone cause some people don’t know how to treat other peoples feelings other then there’s.Love won’t never discover you when you’re down and blue, gloomy and heartbreaken but who cares, love impair those who seek for it and wish to find in someone they adore.

SHOT OUTS BABY

its for yal.hope yal like it.

people i miss here we go thee shotout list!!!

1.all my hater!!!
2.mother .10.erick
3.ray.........11.coke
4.half........12. jarren
5.brian .....13.maya
6.ben 14.oh yea did i say my hater?
7.jalay .......15.ana
8.jasmine ..16.alex
9.frantastic getting teird stoping
17.tony miss you

DOES HE TALK?

TALK BABY TALK!!!!HEHEHEHE

THE LOVE OF MY LIFE YESYES!!!

THERE IS NOTHING GREATER THEN TO BE LOVE BY SOMEONE WHO WILL ALWAY LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT.

YESYES

HIS THE WORLD................

NO ONE CAN COMPARE TO HIM NO WAY SON!!!

YOU DID A GOOD JOB BABY I LOVE YOU

PASSION

Let’s get genuine.
ya dig


The passion that people present or obtain isn’t always good or factual. To share passion is hard and not always straightforward for most people. You have to appear passion in the eyes before you can award it away.
I know I haven’t gazed in passion eyes.
I’m too terrified and my eyes are wound from life and what my I eyes see everyday.
*strained eyes
*red eyes
*tried eyes
*baggie eyes
Possible pink eyes.
Dry eyes is what I have …..Eyes!
Eyes with no voice or story. Eyes! That when you gaze in them you see nothing but decomposing dreams and passion. Passion that you dare not discover nor seek for, its hard to refund passion that been used and abused
(Unwanted and thrown away)
(Lied to and never loved)…yet you hungry to receive.
I extremely dislike destroying my feelings that I feel when there present, nor do I want to misplace them in the stuggle. When you fight for love and passion you’re falling for yourself and the end of whats keeping you alive. Hold on tight to what means the world to you and your heart forth more your senses. Those who fight never succeed. You must fight your heart away in tell your heart is shaking on the ground screaming for your love.
YOUR LOVE.

Yet it still dies from all the pain you caused it. Dreadfully suffering for you and the disappears that drowns me at your feet. The brokenness of shame that’s in the atmosphere….kills. Kills passion that burns in your veins.
I can’t breath!
Must I breath?
Must I live without you?
I must!soooooooooo
So I can be free from sorrow and disappointment.
I want to be free.
FREE to go and run…run anywhere and everywhere I please! Free from you isn’t what I want but must get free. It’s a must, it’s a need. It’s a desire. I want you and I need you. You’re a want a NEED and a desire.

The one you want near is the one you want around.
Around as in there?
Observe not what’s near but what’s near is far. What ever happened was never meant to happen yet your still absent-mined about what happened when it never occured. To explain the past is to die and came back with one leg three arms and one eye.
Isn’t worth it.
The present is the further yet the past was never there. I’m Imprisonment with you not being there or near my side. We are a system that is an envelope which is disorganized.

Life is death waiting to happen.

The shell I shall lay in.

Within an egg shell remains cant move, legs pressed on to your torso. Am in an effin egg shell, apprehensive about when I shall every approach back out.
Out !
Out to observe the humankind !
Out to deliver your self to your corpse!
Out to comprehend guys and why they construct your egg shell so diminutive and unconformable.
Im sooooooo in a nut shell which is close to several egg shell I recognize.
I want to brake free from whom placed me here to stay and engrave my heart away.
Must I be here?

Must I live like this, in this shell that means nothing to me at all but my existence which is slowly falling according to god and his weal?
I’ve been out and about yet that’s the reason why am here.
I’ve never been in an egg shell before nor do I want to stay furthermore resume my life.
I’ve attempted to perform everything I could to stay out off this eggs shell of mine.

What lies beneath that solid firm shell that lays there in this unmarked place?
Feel the need to brake out and show my beauty but too scared of resentment of life and people hurtful comment.

Wait wait maybe its best to stay in this unconformable eggs shell I think I shall call home…yes home!!
Its way better then benign cracked open when you’re not yet ready with your insides spilled any were and every were it shouldn’t be. Your body shall move and spill how ever you lay and see things that hurt you. Right now my bodies every were. Disgraced to declare I must put myself together once again. Hopeful the pieces are not too small.

Don’t allow any individual to brake you diamond eggs shell. I know I did.

Back to that unconformable eggs shell I call home.
Well....
Bach to were I can’t get hurt.
Back to that shell that keeps me hugging myself every minute of the day.


THANK YOU SHELL!!!!!!!